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Laura.
Main fandom/bias: 김종운 / 예성; 슈퍼주니어
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keep it going / Sunday, February 26, 2012 @ 1:56 PM
Hi, I clearly have been neglecting this blog and I don't really feel guilty, lol. I'd love to update about my Korea trip last December but I don't really feel like it and I might actually burst into tears while trying to recall every thing that happened. Not cause it was a bad trip, it was amazing, but I really really really miss the place and every person I spent time with over there. :(
Hi, I clearly have been neglecting this blog and I don't really feel guilty, lol. I'd love to update about my Korea trip last December but I don't really feel like it and I might actually burst into tears while trying to recall every thing that happened. Not cause it was a bad trip, it was amazing, but I really really really miss the place and every person I spent time with over there. :(
So I'm typing this out cause I have a test on Thursday, Saturday, and Monday - Thursday the following week (seems so like me to be blogging only cause of stress from exams lol) BUT I HAVE NOT STUDIED A SINGLE THING. Plus, being form 3 this year, form 1 and form 2 topics are coming out as well, and I obviously have no clue what's what as I have been slacking like nobody's business for the past 2 years (or maybe even since forever). I just need to be clear of what I'm facing and what I'm doing in order to face it, and what I'm doing is completely wrong, I know. I clearly should be studying at this very moment, if not studying since the start of the year or even since last year's holidays but noooo, I'm Laura. I don't do that. Lmao.
Idk what to do srsly. :( I've just been reading The Hunger Games (which is hands down osm btw) which I had to force myself to take my time reading because it was so good. See what kind of student I am? I'm such an idiot. I don't even go for tuition. How do I actually expect myself to score in exams when I don't even try. No wonder my results are so bad all the time. But the worst part about myself is that no matter how much I seem to care, I won't do a thing about it. I complain, complain, complain but I'll never try to improve. I always point out the negative characteristics in myself but I never do anything to fix it or make it positive. Even while typing this out, I hope that I can be a better person and do something that makes more sense with my life by the time I finish typing but yeah, that's never gonna happen lol.
It's inevitable. Me ranting about myself. In fact, the only person I actually can hate is myself. I can only blame myself for every thing. Even if I really dislike someone, I'll say it's my fault. My fault for not being tolerable towards that person.
I definitely miss Korea. Just saying.
what a coincidence / Tuesday, August 9, 2011 @ 3:35 PM
New theme song......... or something.
We seem to like the same kind of music. And books. But that isn't enough to prove anything.
Can I really survive until December? What's going to happen after that anyway?
At a dark night, trudging up along the road alone, it's not that I cried thinking of you. When I found one of your socks in my bed, it's not that I cried cause I missed you chaning your socks. I cried because the heating system broke down.
When I found your cold medicine in my drawer, it's not that I cried cause I worried about you who would catch cold often. It's not that I couldn't sleep and got drunk with the muffler you gave me on my skinny shoulders and cried.
I cried because the heating system broke down.
At a dark night, trudging up along the road alone, I cried thinking of you.
Translation cr: thelostpixie@YT
New theme song......... or something.
We seem to like the same kind of music. And books. But that isn't enough to prove anything.
Can I really survive until December? What's going to happen after that anyway?
Labels: 10cm, emo, i don't know, interests
봐라 mr simple simple / Tuesday, August 2, 2011 @ 8:31 PM
Been listening to Muse lately lol, I don't even know why. My preference to music has been expanding quite a bit recently which is a good thing I guess. I wish I could play at least ONE instrument you know;; But I'm too much of a lazy bum to pick one up.
Been listening to Muse lately lol, I don't even know why. My preference to music has been expanding quite a bit recently which is a good thing I guess. I wish I could play at least ONE instrument you know;; But I'm too much of a lazy bum to pick one up.
I think I've grown too attached to the Koreans. All I really look forward to in a day is to Skype with them, or even have a simple conversation. But of course all of them have their own lives apart from us. They've all been kinda busy lately so they're hardly online. ㅠㅠ Even when they're online I don't talk to them cause I don't know what to say! Yeah, I suck. I expect them to talk to me first. I am pathetic......
Also, 5집 is finally released! Idk why I've been so out of it lately. ~__~ I'm not really going crazy or spazzing much lol. I feel like such a bad fan. u__u Even when Yesung tweets I don't show much reaction...... ;__; I don't think I'm losing interest though. I mean, I'm NOT losing interest. D: I can't lose interest.
Anyway the songs are really good okay, like as expected lol. 8D Wondering where I should buy the album from~ Will decide eventually. ^^
COMEBACK THIS FRIDAY ON MUSIC BANK GUISE WAIT FOR IT
And here's Yesung's teaser picture because I'm such a fail for not updating this blog.
Korean exchange student program / Saturday, July 23, 2011 @ 3:02 AM
One of the best experiences I've ever had. :) I didn't host one but my brother did and I got to hang out with them. All of us literally only knew each other for one week but when we had to leave each other, the waterworks seriously couldn't stop. I honestly didn't expect to cry when I had to send them off at the hotel and the airport. But they are all seriously nice and fun people. I really miss them a lot... I'm sure their respective hosts miss them more than I do though. :(
One of the best experiences I've ever had. :) I didn't host one but my brother did and I got to hang out with them. All of us literally only knew each other for one week but when we had to leave each other, the waterworks seriously couldn't stop. I honestly didn't expect to cry when I had to send them off at the hotel and the airport. But they are all seriously nice and fun people. I really miss them a lot... I'm sure their respective hosts miss them more than I do though. :(
But this was really like the best week I've ever had. :) Didn't get to talk to all of them but I will still miss them all. Most of them have Facebook so that's good. We can all keep in touch. ^^
I'm just sad that I didn't get a picture with everyone........
자신없다 / Thursday, June 30, 2011 @ 7:58 PM
One by one, layers of pride are disappearing. There's nothing left to shield me from those judgmental eyes.
How long have I been like this? I used to have at least a bit of pride back in primary school. Now I have none. Each passing day I feel like I'm shriveling up inside. Afraid to face the world. Afraid to face my family who, I'm sure, has reasonably high expectations of me.
어떡하지?
Labels: emo
내일도 더 달콤한 키스 나눠요~ / Wednesday, January 12, 2011 @ 9:43 PM
Because I have nothing better to do and I wanted to make sure I didn't lose that sentence up there. ^ Yeah..... Lol that's it. :D OKAY I'M KIDDING. Of course I'm not THAT lifeless...... maybe. But still.
I've been stanning Homin so hard since the beginning of the year, and this MV is forever relevant btw.
I guess I haven't really been doing anything else. I've also been sorta stanning Infinite of course cause BTD is just so frickin awesome.
I've also been *coughsemocoughs*. Just a little. :( I just exaggerate things a lot in my head. It's absurd, really. :/ This is why I don't often share my thoughts with people, because everything I think about is weird and actually irrelevant in my life but my brain just gets so messed up and makes it seem like it is! So... yes. :) I realize my wrongs but for some reason I don't bother fixing it. Yay.
I'm in 2 Cekal by the way. I don't have the best classmates, of course, I never do. I do miss my old classmates though. The ones who I can actually have proper conversations with. They were good people. My teachers.... some are nice, some are just plain evil. BUT YEAH. You know... yeah. Lol. I know this is a blog post and I can just like backspace awkward moments but whatever.
I miss last year. I miss standard 6 more than anything though. But I guess this is inevitable. :) Perhaps I'm just going through a phase....... Either that or I just really can't seem to fit in with these people in my school. I hope it isn't the latter though. The last thing I really want is to be wasting my school days on something completely wrong. Maybe I'm not supposed to be in this school? Maybe there is a happier place for me? Lol I am crazy okbye.
Because I have nothing better to do and I wanted to make sure I didn't lose that sentence up there. ^ Yeah..... Lol that's it. :D OKAY I'M KIDDING. Of course I'm not THAT lifeless...... maybe. But still.
I've been stanning Homin so hard since the beginning of the year, and this MV is forever relevant btw.
I guess I haven't really been doing anything else. I've also been sorta stanning Infinite of course cause BTD is just so frickin awesome.
I've also been *coughsemocoughs*. Just a little. :( I just exaggerate things a lot in my head. It's absurd, really. :/ This is why I don't often share my thoughts with people, because everything I think about is weird and actually irrelevant in my life but my brain just gets so messed up and makes it seem like it is! So... yes. :) I realize my wrongs but for some reason I don't bother fixing it. Yay.
I'm in 2 Cekal by the way. I don't have the best classmates, of course, I never do. I do miss my old classmates though. The ones who I can actually have proper conversations with. They were good people. My teachers.... some are nice, some are just plain evil. BUT YEAH. You know... yeah. Lol. I know this is a blog post and I can just like backspace awkward moments but whatever.
I miss last year. I miss standard 6 more than anything though. But I guess this is inevitable. :) Perhaps I'm just going through a phase....... Either that or I just really can't seem to fit in with these people in my school. I hope it isn't the latter though. The last thing I really want is to be wasting my school days on something completely wrong. Maybe I'm not supposed to be in this school? Maybe there is a happier place for me? Lol I am crazy okbye.
Labels: DBSK/TVXQ, emo, Koreans, life, random, sadness, school, stress, teachers
New Year / Sunday, January 2, 2011 @ 4:57 AM
I don't know what to hope for or expect this year. I wasn't even a single bit excited or interested in the fireworks, not that it was that amazing anyway.
2010:
It was certainly an interesting year. I met a lot of new awesome people (in real life and online~), I got to spazz a ton of Kpop, I got to see a few idols in real life (some upclose ^^). Of course there were bad times too. It was really hard for me to get used to form 1 life. Most people will say "What's so hard about form 1? It's so fun and carefree~". Well, not for me.
I guess I'm the type of person who stresses over the tiniest, stupidest things. I don't have any examples but yeah, you could say I'm that kind of person. Also, I went to a completely new school with completely new people whom I've never met before. Basically, none of my primary school friends were there. Yes, I could just make new friends. But for a socially awkward person like me, it is NOT easy, at all. T-T Everyone either thinks I'm emo, sad, or angry. Is it wrong to just be expressionless? I'm not sad or happy. I'm just.... in between. So what expression am I supposed to have? Put on a fake smile? /sobs/ This is not the reality I wanted.
Apart from socializing and making friends, studies and exams were also a major stress factor. :( EVERYTHING IS SO HARD OTL. LIFE, WAYLT. ;A;
But seriously, highlight of the year has got to be every school holiday. I just hate school. Everyone has friends of their own. I am LITERALLY FOREVER ALONE IN SCHOOL. RECESS IS THE WORST PART. EVERYONE TALKS IN THEIR OWN CIRCLES AND I SWEAR I AM THE ONLY ONE WHO IS STANDING IN THE MIDDLE OF THE GOD DAMN CANTEEN BY MYSELF. YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW MISERABLE I FREAKING FEEL IN SCHOOL GDI.
I'm not even exaggerating. I guess I'm one of those troubled teenagers lmao orz. ANYWAY, secondary school has been tough so far, and to think this is only the beginning. The only thing keeping me sane is Kpop, and my spazz buddies, and school holidays rofl. Life away from school is the best thing that has ever happened to me. YESUNG IS THE BEST THING THAT HAS EVER HAPPENED TO ME. /bricked.
I don't know what to hope for or expect this year. I wasn't even a single bit excited or interested in the fireworks, not that it was that amazing anyway.
2010:
It was certainly an interesting year. I met a lot of new awesome people (in real life and online~), I got to spazz a ton of Kpop, I got to see a few idols in real life (some upclose ^^). Of course there were bad times too. It was really hard for me to get used to form 1 life. Most people will say "What's so hard about form 1? It's so fun and carefree~". Well, not for me.
I guess I'm the type of person who stresses over the tiniest, stupidest things. I don't have any examples but yeah, you could say I'm that kind of person. Also, I went to a completely new school with completely new people whom I've never met before. Basically, none of my primary school friends were there. Yes, I could just make new friends. But for a socially awkward person like me, it is NOT easy, at all. T-T Everyone either thinks I'm emo, sad, or angry. Is it wrong to just be expressionless? I'm not sad or happy. I'm just.... in between. So what expression am I supposed to have? Put on a fake smile? /sobs/ This is not the reality I wanted.
Apart from socializing and making friends, studies and exams were also a major stress factor. :( EVERYTHING IS SO HARD OTL. LIFE, WAYLT. ;A;
But seriously, highlight of the year has got to be every school holiday. I just hate school. Everyone has friends of their own. I am LITERALLY FOREVER ALONE IN SCHOOL. RECESS IS THE WORST PART. EVERYONE TALKS IN THEIR OWN CIRCLES AND I SWEAR I AM THE ONLY ONE WHO IS STANDING IN THE MIDDLE OF THE GOD DAMN CANTEEN BY MYSELF. YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW MISERABLE I FREAKING FEEL IN SCHOOL GDI.
I'm not even exaggerating. I guess I'm one of those troubled teenagers lmao orz. ANYWAY, secondary school has been tough so far, and to think this is only the beginning. The only thing keeping me sane is Kpop, and my spazz buddies, and school holidays rofl. Life away from school is the best thing that has ever happened to me. YESUNG IS THE BEST THING THAT HAS EVER HAPPENED TO ME. /bricked.
And here is a forever-irrelevant-to-this-blog-post-but-always-relevant-in-life picture of Lee Sungmin like a boss with his eyeliner taken on his birthday aka yesterday aka New Year's Day aka 1st January. :D
pfft i wished him yesterday on twitter okay
So 2010 pretty much ended with a bang thanks to the always awesome year-end song festivals. But more specifically thanks to Super Junior for making me spazz endlessly from the beginning to the end of the year. They help me get through all of the rough patches in life and I really appreciate it. :)
Hopefully 2011 will be, if not the same, better than 2010. ^^
The problem is, 2011 has barely started and I'm honestly starting to have worries already. What a way to start the year, right? I've been worried shit about what class I'm going to be in and who's going to be my classmates and who's gonna teach my class. T_T I'll probably be in Cekal or Amanah. I DON'T FREAKING WANT CEKAL OMG. CEKAL HAS SCARY TEACHERS, OR SO I HEARD. X( I would have higher hopes but... Nina saw the list of who's in which class already. She's in Amanah. And she knows a few people who are in the same class as her. But she said she didn't get to check my name cause she was 'in a hurry'. IF SHE CAN SEE WHO'S IN HER CLASS AND WHO'S IN GIGIH, SHE WOULD'VE SEEN MY NAME IF I WERE IN AMANAH RIGHT. GDI I AM SCARED SERIOUSLY. T___T But knowing how horrible my luck is, I'll probably be in Cekal. Lady Luck will probably throw in some of the people I dislike.
Then again I could be thinking too much.... sigh. I really hope I'm in Amanah though... Or at least a class which has less scary teachers? T_T
All worries aside, here is something that has been helping me keep sane lately rofl. It's also something to help kick off 2011. ;)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SUNGMIN!
So 2010 pretty much ended with a bang thanks to the always awesome year-end song festivals. But more specifically thanks to Super Junior for making me spazz endlessly from the beginning to the end of the year. They help me get through all of the rough patches in life and I really appreciate it. :)
Hopefully 2011 will be, if not the same, better than 2010. ^^
The problem is, 2011 has barely started and I'm honestly starting to have worries already. What a way to start the year, right? I've been worried shit about what class I'm going to be in and who's going to be my classmates and who's gonna teach my class. T_T I'll probably be in Cekal or Amanah. I DON'T FREAKING WANT CEKAL OMG. CEKAL HAS SCARY TEACHERS, OR SO I HEARD. X( I would have higher hopes but... Nina saw the list of who's in which class already. She's in Amanah. And she knows a few people who are in the same class as her. But she said she didn't get to check my name cause she was 'in a hurry'. IF SHE CAN SEE WHO'S IN HER CLASS AND WHO'S IN GIGIH, SHE WOULD'VE SEEN MY NAME IF I WERE IN AMANAH RIGHT. GDI I AM SCARED SERIOUSLY. T___T But knowing how horrible my luck is, I'll probably be in Cekal. Lady Luck will probably throw in some of the people I dislike.
Then again I could be thinking too much.... sigh. I really hope I'm in Amanah though... Or at least a class which has less scary teachers? T_T
All worries aside, here is something that has been helping me keep sane lately rofl. It's also something to help kick off 2011. ;)
As the Cassies say,
"THE GODS ARE BACK!"
Labels: DBSK/TVXQ, emo, Koreans, life, pissed, random, school, stress, Super Junior, Yesung
Post exams / Wednesday, November 10, 2010 @ 8:29 PM
Now that exams are over and there's no more studies, I feel... just as miserable lol. There is absolutely nothing for me to do at school. And not to mention all of my 'friends' ditching me for my other friends. Some of the people who I thought weren't my friends never ditch me yet those I though were my friends constantly leave me alone. Hmmmmmmmmm.
I need to stop these emo posts like seriously. D;
For the past 3 days or so of school, we've basically been doing the same thing. Collect results, play games, that kind of stuff. We've been playing Bluff in class. :P Or as they like to call it, BULLSHIT. I always thought I was a sucky liar but this game pretty much proves myself wrong? XD But today, the PK HEM walked past our class and 'caught' us playing. She confiscated the cards. -.- Because cards like these,
aren't allowed in school, if you didn't know already. Apparently, all teachers just ASSUME that those cards can ONLY be used for gambling. WE WEREN'T EVEN GAMBLING AND YOU SAY WE ARE SO YOU GO CONFISCATE OUR CARDS. :@
Teachers will be teachers.
I've been bringing my camera to school though. No satisfying pictures as of yet, since the classmates just kidnap my camera and rape it by taking pictures of every useless little thing and person. :))))))))))))))))))))) SIGH WHY AM I LIKE THIS. T_______T I have made a conclusion though: Candid pictures of me = shit. And I get full marks for that answer.
Speaking of marks, my results... have not been very good. Too lazy to list all the marks. :/
Now that exams are over and there's no more studies, I feel... just as miserable lol. There is absolutely nothing for me to do at school. And not to mention all of my 'friends' ditching me for my other friends. Some of the people who I thought weren't my friends never ditch me yet those I though were my friends constantly leave me alone. Hmmmmmmmmm.
I need to stop these emo posts like seriously. D;
For the past 3 days or so of school, we've basically been doing the same thing. Collect results, play games, that kind of stuff. We've been playing Bluff in class. :P Or as they like to call it, BULLSHIT. I always thought I was a sucky liar but this game pretty much proves myself wrong? XD But today, the PK HEM walked past our class and 'caught' us playing. She confiscated the cards. -.- Because cards like these,
aren't allowed in school, if you didn't know already. Apparently, all teachers just ASSUME that those cards can ONLY be used for gambling. WE WEREN'T EVEN GAMBLING AND YOU SAY WE ARE SO YOU GO CONFISCATE OUR CARDS. :@
When you gamble with money, you get addicted. When you get addicted, you go and borrow money from the Ah Long. When you borrow money from the Ah Long, you will jump off the building and commit suicide.Lol this kind of logic............ I don't even. :(
Teachers will be teachers.
I've been bringing my camera to school though. No satisfying pictures as of yet, since the classmates just kidnap my camera and rape it by taking pictures of every useless little thing and person. :))))))))))))))))))))) SIGH WHY AM I LIKE THIS. T_______T I have made a conclusion though: Candid pictures of me = shit. And I get full marks for that answer.
Speaking of marks, my results... have not been very good. Too lazy to list all the marks. :/